I hit the rock bottom... Again. I feel frustrated because i think i can't do anything, i can't let my anger out. From the very first day, i knew i would do a good job but i couldn't guarantee myself to fit in with the circumstances.

I was plotted with partners (almost) twice my age, i trusted them because they're seniors, and i sweared to myself i wouldn't make any scene to stand out or whatever reasons. They made the budget arrangement without looking at my drawing, i know they have waaaaay more experience than me, but still, i feel a lil bit disappointed. But then, alright, i'm okay with that i can revise my drawing. Don't get me wrong, they're nice, but i feel useless now, i can't do the job i supposed to do. It was nicr of em not letting me face the people alone, i feel grateful yet trapped in the same time. What am i supposed to do? I can just sit still, hearing to whatever they say, fake laughing and pretending to care about their jokes. 

With this mess inside my head, i cannot act normal around them, so i just shut up the whole day for the better good.