Hi, it's been a while, isn't it?

I'm far away from home again, i can't believe how much i miss home right now, even though i was just there this morning.

It was just like dejavu, everything. It was also august 4 years ago, when my phone number was blocked and i had sent portfolio everywhere. It happened again this year, my phone number was blocked and i was just sent dozens of job application. Then, again, my senior asked me to fill in a spot. The same as four years ago. I only had a week to prepare and here i am in a strange land i have never visited before. Of course i feel lonely, i don't know any single person here, yet they have local language which i don't understand. But this loneliness makes me get closer to God, makes me more grateful about everythinh.

 I don't wanna make my parents worried, i said everything's fine, but it is indeed fine. Not like four years ago when i said everything is fine, the fact is i'm struggling a lot, my boarding house wasn't as nice as this at first. I had to lie over and over again that i had already went home after work, the fact was i still at the office until the next morning.

Wis me best of luck that i don't have to lie anymore, i won't make them worry, i'll tell everything that i do. It always always always feels like i took everything for granted.