Friday, December 30, 2011

Knocking 2012's Gate

2011 : obnoxious - hidden - tense
my life seems a lil' bit horrible, huh?

hello universe! it's a brand new year already! who's excited??? say, not me. right after the first day of 2012 i have to go back to my routine, yep! my last senior high year. yeah time runs, people change, i grow, rain stops, sometimes sun shines but sometimes it doesn't.
to be frank i really have no intention to post or write or... yeah type. but then my solid friend came up on twitter telling his will to post something special in transition of 2011 - 2012, i didn't know where it came from but suddenly i just got lamp above my head. so we (the solid, living ladder and me) made a challenge on this post. its rules are reflected in first and last line, the other rule is to share it, and because of that rule i have to draft some posts, it's too dangerous you know it can cause world war III hahahahaha nah, kidding, it's just too insulting.

if i'm asked to tell what's going on in 2011, i will absolutely answer i have no idea, everything seems blur, cause i can't remember the details. but the best part is you can always count on seen memories, photos. by photos you can remember your activity, even the details of it, so bring your camera everywhere everytime and take whatever happen. so this is my summary of 2011, not good enough and the size is the biggest mistake, i did it in the middle of the night when sad song's played, you know the feeling, duh! --"
the box on top photo is taken from motion book, i didn't get the final though, my friends got it. Idioglossia is the title of our art show i've ever posted here for more information.

in January, based on my first photo that taken by my phone, my first day school in 2011 started in Friday, and my first photo is about art assignment -____-.
<--- this
sorry for the ugly whiteboard, i will even be more sorry if y'all know how's my school, but it's already International Standardize School (Mr. Val said it to me thousand times).



a little note, while searching photos page by page, folder by folder, i also searched the date, this is what i've got in the first day school of 2011 beside the art assignment. it should be appear in 'What were they thinking' on Yahoo!OMG, then he must've received a hard critic from Paris Hilton. - i don't know the co-relation, i just say - --"
i was thinking to blur his face to make sure people do not know him so he won't be ashamed, but nah! his face's already blur. no revenge, it's not Nida doing it, it's Jane.




that which reminds me of mixed photos i made few months ago and it's original, hasn't published yet, so this is the premiere

i don't know they tried to be fashionable or what? i think i'm gonna get going with 'or what'. but Thanks God they're cool now, after unspokenable war hahahaha *chuckles

2011 is the age of transition, my transition between 11 grader to 12 grader which means more responsibility is needed here. it's been a tough year, so many things changed, these and those were flipped, twist in every single corner of day.

for my family (perhaps) 2011 is the hardest year ever, in the beginning of the year my uncle was hospitalized, he got an accident. few people that had been assumed as part of my family passed away this year. the biggest, my sister got a big accident. she hit a car, something in her neck didn't run the way supposed to be. i didn't know why it happened to her. i couldn't hold my tears seeing the couple that raised me, both cried. it's like 'oh my God what am i gonna do? what am i supposed to do?', all that i could do was just keeping my own and my brother's safety at that time. everything was a mess. and this year is the first time of my life i went Sholat Ied without my mother and my sister, it's the first time of my life i didn't shop for Ied preparation, and the first time of my life i celebrated Ied in the hospital :)
my sister is a strong girl, even though she's still at home now, hasn't be able to walk yet, but she makes a progressive change. well, she will run soon hahahahaha

okay, FRIENDS, i don't wanna talk about the drafted post, everybody already knew though. all i wanna say is THANK YOU SO MUCH. without your knowing you always pull me out to laugh when i'm down. i love the way we're gossiping people, teacher, friends, government(?). and the fact, hanging out after school and going home late, is always fun indeed. you know the time when i don't wanna talk to anybody, fortunately y'all already know how to spell my name correctly and some of you have already known my house, so if there's something happen to me or i die, you will always know where to find me. all at once i just wanna thank y'all for helping, supporting, and being a good brother and sister for me, i love you ;)

important things that i get last year are trust and honesty. i've been taught about it since i was born, but i just realize there's a big deep meaning behind it.

okay, shoot 2012. turn the page but don't close the book, we're all in this together, we still have the story to walk on. i don't have specific wish or hope or resolution, i just want to have the same deal with my dad about college then be accepted there, my sister can walk, all of my friends get their dream, everyone's happy, Indonesia gets better then i'll be rich(?)

i spend new year's eve in Voila's house. we have a lot of fun, we have no plan before this i was just barging in to her house till afternoon watching horror movie with Atika too, but then suddenly the idea to stay coming up and it was good and awesome. we tapped some videos, took a lot photos and yeah fun things.

my unforgettable moment in 2011 : actually this isn't the best, it's the worst though, but it's unforgettable for me. it's the night before my friends and I watched Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows part 2.

mission accomplished, yes?

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Carla Bruni - Quelqu'un m'a Dit

Friday Friday

school was on in Friday, there's a sport thing which is walking around the town which i skipped. i didn't plan it, i went to hospital to take Nana's stuff and i got stucked there for 2 hours. this is the second time i didn't join that school activity, the first is when i was in Penang. but i grabbed school at 9, so there were still a lot people there, and as i was planned i got Iput and Ade to help me make a photograph 'get well soon' for Nana. actually i had one other person more to help, but.. you know.
i got all that day activity pictures from Iput whom i really thanked for. well yeah, i just love them. it was a really full day for me, 2 hours skipping school staying at the hospital without parents' knowing, 2 hours at school busying around even i just have a chance to sit down calmly for 10 minutes, an hour back to the hospital, then i skipped course, take a nap for (you're not gonna believe this) 4 hours, get up and then go to the doctor, then sleep. easy as that --"
finally i feel what is the feeling to not feel anything, neither pleasure nor sad, just straight without any beat --------------------------------------------------------------- << like that






this morning i'll got my term test report, i don't care what's the result, all that i want is people can see which is the best from us or which is nothing from us, you know what i mean? i mean people get the result not from their really own ability. yeah let God gives them a thing.
advice from me, when you're feeling blue, grab your mobile and text your friend, it does help a lot ;)

Thursday, December 15, 2011

now i'm twitter-ing while listening to Adele's concert. can't help but thinking too much

Fakhriyyah K
the next fifty years, i'm gonna tell my grandchild that i had really tough friends. they got really big matters in their life.

Fakhriyyah K
the better you are, the more struggle you get. maybe you seems weaker, but it makes you stronger than ever later.

Fakhriyyah K
then i will tell them (my grandchildren), that i was speechless reading their (my friends) texts and i was confused how to reply it.

then, i will tell my grandchildren that i saw contradiction faces between her (my friend) and her mom. her mom seemed soooo down, while she (my friend) tried to hide everything behind.

get well soon Nana
you're a hero before everything, you fight from the start by yourself, and you lead me to the right path
we love you, i love you <3

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

We're Still Here







A : so that's why you can't accompany me
N : yeah, i'm sorry, but i can't always have time for them

R : *staring at the laptop while smiling
M : why don't you stop smiling? you must've been really happy meeting them, right?

Monday, December 12, 2011

i have nothing to say seeing the world of non-sense
when the truth is hidden, and the fakers walk proudly on the road
whilst dollar being a God of God and all the matters are about brand
most people cling their half eye even though they sure can open both
truth is being endemic, them people are too afraid to say it
because they live on big mouth's hands

they use wall thick transparent ear muffs
so they can ignore crying hungry children, murmuring homeless people, screaming protesters
even National Anthem sometimes sounds less than meaningless
the choir sings just why they have to

.... to be continued i'm sleepy

Sunday, December 11, 2011



i love this so much

Saturday, December 10, 2011

finally term-test already gone, but i still have to punch the next hell-y semester.
okay, shoot. today, this afternoon, i had a super awesome great time with my friends. i know thanksgiving day already passed, but it's never too late to be thankful for. God lead me to the right path, i don't know what will i say but THANKS A LOT FOR EVERYTHING. i love them i love them soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo MUCH.
i learned a lot for the three years past, i was lost for a moment in the beginning of high school, then i got a grip. the unfitted one. but then it's released and i moved on. it's like i'm flying now, knowing everyone has the mutual bugs FEELS AWESOME. it's not we like to have enemy or something like that, but it's like we have a tons of cavalry that ready to help us when we got bammed.
my mind's mixed now, it's un-arranged. so many things i wanna say, but it's stucked, it's difficult when you were in A and you still have a part of B. and sometimes thinking positively doesn't always be good, and too innocent is too worst -___-.
Indonesia, i pray for you, i do not regret to be yours, but i'm just disappointed there are so many people like who i was before, once again i was lost. no wonder this country can't fly up high. it doesn't mean people like me can fly this country, NOOOO it doesn't mean like that, i mean how about making better change from ourselves first, nothing to lose though ;)

Struggle continues, but at least i know i'm not alone
Santana - Glee : Hold On To Sixteen

Thursday, December 8, 2011

God only knows what we're fighting for
All that I say, you always say more

I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb, I can't breathe

So I won't let you close enough to hurt me
No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me

Adele - Turning Table

Taylor Swift - Ours

Saturday, December 3, 2011

they're not as close as my 'were'indeed, but with them i feel like a free electron. i can make a van der wals bonding, it's not too strong but it feels more. making a hydrogen bonding with my 'were' which is a strong bonding, just makes me feel trapped and if we're cut off, it hurts and hard.
they aren't always there anytime for me, not all of them are always beside me, but i care about them and they care about me, we laugh at ourselves not laugh and make a joke at other people, and it's always fun.