I Miss This Random Combo

I miiiiihiiiissss youuuhuuu sooohooo baaahaaad

God, tell my mother

God, please tell my mom to stay strong, tell her to stay healthy, tell her to get enough rest, tell her You will help her get through anything, telk her her daughter gonna be a great person, tell her her son gonna be an awesome one, tell her i'm doing fine, tell her i will make her the happiest mother in the world, tell her i have a lot of friend, tell her i'm trying to be a nice person to everybody, tell her i know a lot of people, tell her i've been having so much fun, tell her i'm sorry for being such a pain in the ass, tell her i love her so much, tell her i wanna go home.

You're finally cracked up today, both. Your anger and your tears.
The monologue behind your head keep repeating itself you've failed this time. You completely lose it.
They say you have to hold on, they say they have your back, they say it's gonna be just fine. Who are they kidding?
You're not allowed to lose it, you have to bear it. Just like anybody else thought who you are, then be it, please anyone. Even if you just have one leg you need to stand up, even if you just have one ear you need to listen up, even if you just have one eye you need to see. Tell yourself you're not allowed to complain, tell yourself you're not allowed to get tired, nobody give a damn about what you've been through, nobody will simphatize you if you act so weak, nobody doesn't really care when you're bleeding, so get a grip and save yourself.
Get yourself together, your life is too good to be frowning.

Drafted 1/3/2015 : Kadang Hari

Kadang pengen berbagi sama semua orang tentang hari. Kemarin, hari ini dan besok.
Tentang siapa aja yang ditemui, kemana aja, kapan.
Tentang kekangenan untuk sebagian orang dan beberapa hal.
Tentang mimpi mimpi aneh yang singgah tadi malam.
Tentang jokes sederhana yang lucunya luar biasa.
Tentang sunset yang selalu terbelakangi ketika di jembatan layang.
Tentang spontanitas mampir di kampus kedua setelah kampus sendiri.
Tentang hidup sehari ini yang ditutup dengan selamat tinggal yang cantik.

Tapi cara pandang orang berbeda, itu yang membatasi kita untuk berbagi. Sebagian orang menganggap kamu sok sibuk, sebagian lagi menganggap kamu luar biasa, sebagian lagi tak peduli dengan kehidupanmu, sebagian lain bahkan tak terbersit menanyakan keadaanmu.
Bukan minta diperhatikan atau minta dikasihani. Kadang hanya ingin berbagi betapa serunya hari ini.

Rain

Frankly, i don't even know why people love rain that goddamn much.
The picture of dark clouds is the most terrifying beginning.
The sound of those amounts of water is the sign of 'now anything's gonna be worse'.
The chilly wind get your guts lessen.
The wet pavement's ready to eat you up.
And in the end the mistical smell of the ground is just like a funeral parade.
I don't hate rain, but i don't like it either.
But instead of being alone in a crowd, i'd rather jump in the rain and being scared.
Bye.

Happy... New Birthday Year

I'm not those extreme feminist who defend nudist and blame rapist.
But i'm a part of those who believe if a man can be an astronaut then a woman can be so, if a man can rule then a woman can do so.
And that dream to be one of a kind, to be an example for the other, to be one who rise among the other gender, will still be placed right here whether it is seen or not.
Happy new year and happy birthday :)