I was fine last night jokingly posting on twitter that i've been living a peaceful life and then suddenly i was faced with the past. Ea (exclamation slang in Bahasa, indicating flirty joke). But I'm so overwhelmed right now, i need to let it out or i can't function well the whole day.

High school is the trigger of my anxiety rise up because i was pretty much going thru hell at that time, there's something unsolved, but nothing require closure, not now not then. Something linger that gives me the whole melancholy effect just knowing i have to inform my (was) classmate that my teacher is unwell and he needs our help. 

I'm not even kidding, this uneasy feeling keeps creeping me out. I wish i could turn back time, insert wayv song: stop... rewind... turn back time... he he he. Or simply forget one single thing in my brain that i have ever done something horrible and in return being treated badly. My feelings was just so much in high school, i took it to heart for everything that went on in my life, so when i was happy, my heart was so full until its exploded, but when i was down, i felt like the whole world against me and sank me to the center of the earth, like i had no one to hold on.

lessons learned, lessons learned, lessons learned.

let go of what you treasure dearly and has been gone for so long, you're no longer significant for others, live your life to the fullest for yourself, don't expect anything in return from anyone, everyman for himself, lift yourself up.

NAMASTE!!!!