February,

i flopped my ielts test so hard, only got 5,5 on writing because of the overthinking and nervousness. But thankfully the overall band is still can be used to apply scholarship which later require another ielts test if i can get through. So, i will take the test again anyway, no regrets.
Talking about scholarship hunting, i don't know when will i start another thing, i mean, i don't know until when i will stay unemployed and living this slow motion life but at least i need to finish this procedure first, i don't know when i will have the courage to do this if not now. I'm so thankful of what i got now, so many things i can't do then i can do it now. now i can swim, i took ielts for the first time, i went to bali, i volunteer to teach, i learn how to drive, and those lots of things that i do for the first time.

as i prepare documents for scholarship application, there are lots of things i forgot i had ever had, i knew i joined many organizations and events but winning second place for writing about the world of muslimah was another story, so not me, but i won anyway.

i needed to scan everything to keep the soft file, but the last time multi function printer that can be used for printing, scanning and faxing in my house was used when i was in high school. When i was a kid, my dad said that i was cold handed, a phrase in bahasa, which means i could always fix broken things. And it still works until now, i can revive the never been used since high school printer. And while i was at it i also scanned all of the polaroid i took, including the one i took at my farewell almost 2 months ago.