Now that i know i can survive in this cruel city, everything feels dull. Two days straight, i've spent the weekends in my apartment, not even stepping foot in the lobby, just the convenience store in the back of my building to grab some chips.
I know for sure that i'm an introvert to enjoy my 'me time', but this is so different. I even reject my friends offer to watch The Greatest Showman.
I'm not sure how to go on by worrying so much about my future, holding myself as hard as i can to not involved in any affair in the mean time, feeling insecure about works and such.
I don't know what it feels like to be depressed and i know depression is a real issue that i can make fun of and speculate myself to have one. I can't tell.
Is it depressed or is it just insecurity? Is it depressed or is it just lonely? Is it depressed or is it just amount of feeling of missing somebody?