staying up late in the middle of the night, never knowing what's gonna happen next. unhearing owl, that night mythical creature, few years ago often came along bringing fear. now, the fear is way wider than that. curious curiouser no longer asks for anybody's business, further away has no clue where's the finish line of the labyrinth. those sisters and brothers bring thee to the most incredible ticking of a clock. the devil keeps approaching with no intention to change the atmosphere, they succeed by breaking the ozone layers and bringing the neutralizer down. cover by cover had been flipped but the life Maker haven't thrown the crown to this prown. rain brakes single tear, while lightning crashes a line screaming. those who never expected come over to have a tea, all that left behind gets along. some of species will see me be put under the ground, maybe they won't spent their eye's pond just for the one. known as fearless person, never make a body live forever. smith never be allowed to pass the bridge of curved-triangle, but the one who be allowed never having a will even just to leave a fingerprint, because the witch already puts a curse on the allowed one. flashing memory pulls me down in to a fulled misery jar. to build that castle to reach the flag to put hand above the head. please give more than take, stay bright, stand tall, sit down then take a breath.

Katy Perry - The One That Got Away

it was a rainy afternoon, when i went out from my course heading to my friends house with my other two friends. i had a lil' chit chat with Zoe while we're waiting for Ann taking her jacket. then 10 minutes later, i clearly remember Ann appeared then Zoe and i jumped in our own motorbike.
we didn't have any bad thinking or ... yeah something like that. we're stopped by the traffic light near a bus station.
" I'm out of gas, you better go first ", I said
" i don't know her (my friend) house ", Ann said
" Zoe knows, just follow her ", I said that while my machine running
so, we splitted up, i took right to the gas station. the gas man was so nice, asking why i went home so late, and i was just ... you know course stuff. I left the gas station then.
i still ran my motorbike in a medium speed, and arrived right in front of my friend's house. but Zoe's and Ann's motorbikes weren't there yet, i was all confused by myself, then i turned around, took a random road, honestly i didn't know where to go.
no for long, Ann rang my phone.
" where are you? i've been here ", i said
" It's bad, Zoe fell ", she said it in panic
" what? but where are you right now? "
" just... go back. We're beside the court. Hurry! "
i turned my motorbike on and rode crazily. i couldn't find where they are, then i got a feeling that they're in that place, Ann walked out from the house, stared at me while pointing to Zoe that had been lying down surrounded unknown people. i was stuttered, speechless, and just Oh My God what the hell happened. i really really didn't say a word. we brought Zoe to the hospital.
i found Ann in the registration, she's so messed up. Zoe was in a transition room, when her father came, then her father completed the registration. Me and Ann, sitting in an emergency's waiting room, ALL SILENT, we're busy with our own mind. we didn't know what just happened. yeah we cried, made each other calm down, then her father permitted us to go home.

3 AM i woke up, i took a look on twitter and facebook it's all full of condolences words, okay what again. it's said my school's parking officer passed away. so many people attended his funeral, he's a nice person, he's the one who could remember almost all police number of our motorcycle.
and today, in 12PM sharp, my neighbor went away from this world, she's a grandma already, my mom said it's because of complication damage of her body, she's already old.
you know, what i'm saying is .... we never know when where God gives us a lesson to learn, we have to keep believing The One. be careful, make a peace, keep smiling and be happy :)

Justin Bieber - Mistletoe

i always have second thought every single time i wanna post something here. it's been decade i posted something here.
i just wanna stay silent, cause it's not comfortable anymore write anything here, it's like you put big sound system around the world, then you sing on a microphone.
moreover, i don't like people talk about every shits i put here. i don't like those craps who obsessed and checking on all of my accounts regularly. it's okay if you give more attention, but your way is way too wrong. it's like i've been stared all the time, and i do not like that. very much.
that is why i reduce the way i tweet, post and link something.
so, please be normal, back off and i beg you to move on.

Gamal, Audrey & Cantika - Skyscraper

You know that feeling? When you’re just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And you’re tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay. But no one’s going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But you know you won’t be. But you’re still hoping. And you’re still wishing. And you’re still staying strong and fighting, with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting.


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Super Magnifier

today i had a biology class, and my teacher asked us to have an experiments about growth, i had to slice a seed and examined the seed with magnifier, then i had to draw what i saw on report book, it was so much fun, my teacher is sooo kind, she let us to play with the magnifier, even more she laughed when i wrote my friends' name on seeds.

Spread The Love

playing with heart-shaped origami, and adding a paper stick on it

Party of The LQI

it was last wednesday, the d-day we decided to have breaking fasting at Pram's house.
before i went there, i had to take chemist course, and i was soooooo excited at that time i kept my positive energy inside my head, just in case my mood would swing around freely.
maybe part of them (my classmates) worried about what to wear how they looked like, but me a big fat no no, i took simple randomly outfit 'cause you know what, to be ordinary among the extraordinaries is superordinary.
i rode my motorcycle with Ade, it was beautiful dusk. when i arrived at pram's, my friends already played poker WITHOUT meee. then i grabbed another pack of cards and asked Iput, Arden, Ade, Nita to join me.
when adzan was heard, we went to the food lounge without any command. then we did sholat, and had a BBQ party, watched Super 8, danced around together, sang together, everything. we had so much fun.

playing poker


preparing LCD to watch Super 8


grabbing the meal