with or without your realization, His mercies always there.

when you feel down, when surrender is the only way you can take. Don't be afraid to step further sacrificing what's left of yours. one day when you have only a dollar in your wallet, and in the same day there's someone collecting donation for people who are less lucky than us, you can not give a thing but a dollar. And then there's inner conflict in you, your brain says 'there's no way you donate the only money you have to that donation, you can't have a dinner today, and you can't buy another shoes you wanna have', but your heart screams 'yes, donate it! there are some who need it more than you, you can skip dinner and ask your parents for breakfast tomorrow, and you haven't need a new shoes yet, come on come to your senses!'. 

when both situation happen, there's one thing you have to always remember your whole life, that Allah will always multiply your every single donation for the people who need it.

yes, there's the third side all this time.
which... no one knows
it does have similar characters with that i've talked about
and you do know, my friend
if only you read this, which i can guarantee you don't, this will be the continuing of our conversation
but you end it so fast, my friend, not your luck.

Tiring Pleasure

Jogjakarta - Dieng, 5-6 July 2013

Those pressure of having both exams and big project made our head in alert to explode. We're just finishing our last exam, when one big project of construction was given back, it had been scored, and most of score didn't really went along well with the effort we'd been poured in that project. It was gloomy, mental breakdown was followed by hard rain and sad mellow song as if it was a movie.

It'd been a week since our holiday officially started.we got over the whole anxiety of having bad marks, and yes, we're architecture students, we're pleasure seeker. so as it was planned way before hand, we - 16 people - toured to Dieng, and 'toured' here i mean, by motorbike. It was a really long way to go. The scenery was so so on the way Jogjakarta - Magelang - Temanggung, but when we wheeled on Wonosobo, it was awesome! and chilly. The fog had already been down when it was half past five pm. We stayed in Puja's relative, Puja was the leader of this tour, and honestly at first it was his mom asked him to visit his relative before he left Jogja, and Puja offered us whether we wanted to join or not, of course we said yes! that's why the 'visit' became the 'tour'. After eating and sleeping soundly, 2 AM, we got up, freshened up, then we hit road.

It was okay, but then the very very cold air attacked us, i was the one behind Puja and he trembled. We used everything to warm ourselves - jacket, socks, gloves, scarf, cap, even ... raincoat - It was dark and cold and cold and cold. Until we arrived at the highest village in Central Java, forgot the name but it's still bloody cold. Then finally we reached the post where we started to go up to the top of Sikunir.

 

 

Lenka - Heart To The Party

BROWN

BROWN, a photo by fakhriyyahkhairunnida on Flickr.

I was too happy to jump too high, when something knocked me down on my feet before anyone ever saw me in the air. that girl with her innocent face seemed too angry to see me floating. she knotted my one barefoot with those old fragile ropes. i would like to be your friend, gladly. but you chose to knot my other barefoot, so what you expect me to care. you, you stabbed my back before i let you see my face. twice. you stabbed my back twice. hahahahahaha thanks.
i might still know you, but please don't you ever have thought that i will keep my trust on you anymore.
ANYMORE.

JUMP!

jump, a photo by fakhriyyahkhairunnida on Flickr.

well, it's just a metaphor, it doesn't mean with 'jumping' your whole life will get better. it's just that... what i mean is, when everything turns out bad, you get a bad mark, get an accident, unlucky thing happens or else, you just have to go the opposite direction.
Raise yourself up, darling. because no one else will.

Why Am I The One?

why am i the one, a photo by fakhriyyahkhairunnida on Flickr.

why this song?
this song's accompanied me when i was in a such a deep deep misery. when all i could do was just asking a whole lot of question, nothing to blame anyone. when i felt the world didn't synchronized well with my heart. when all the pressure took half of my breath away. and when i knew, i got no one to count on. :)