Westlife - Loneliness Knows Me by Name

i love Westlife till dead, it's soooooo sad that i can't attend their farewell concert in Indonesia. it doesn't matter though, just so you know Mark, i will always love you. i like them their music and their complete face since i was 7, me and my friend were so crazy about 'em.
this was the first song played after i turned on my laptop when i got home today, after really exhausting day. so tired, God.

i got home. it's such a quite place with humans in it, but there's no sound signed alive. i sometimes feel alone, until i reach my bedroom and meet my laptop, then whishper

"well, hello my friend"

that's my story of my stuff friend, what's yours?

That was then, This is now

those are my really really beloved classmates, which has enlightened my world for the last 3 years. i couldn't be grateless for them, i love them so much.
yesterday, i came home with my friend, he sang 'a gift of a friend' by Demi Lovato all the way. it did sound so beautiful all of sudden, after all we've been through these time. we have no more than a month remaining until the final exam, wish us luck, k?

okay, where do i begin?
starting with the first day of this week. i had just finished practical examination with the whole lab stuff which has no fun. that day i just sighed a lil' bit relaxed a lil' bit, because the next two days i'd have the first try out of final examination, and TODAY finally i got it all finished. messily.
this is weekend by the way, don't wanna talk about school so much.
this was a really tense week, everything was just above the nerve, and once again i always say

" Your happiness, your sorrow, your feeling of love, your feeling of loathing, are absolutely decided by your own self. Set your mind to be "

i beg y'all to give your best prayer for me, i've decided to be an architect in Gadjah Mada University, i really do hope i can get in. i have so much struggle to deal about college stuffs, i used to wanna be a psychologist but unfortunately faculty of psychology in that university in a social side, while i'm in science.

What Words
dear Ashley and Mary
i'm glad to be your friend
i'm glad you include me in your conversation
i'm glad i have an opportunity to be your lil' sister
i'm glad to have you always by my side

dear Holden
i want you to be my friend
i want you to include me in your conversation
i want to have an opportunity to be your lil' sister
i want to have you always by my side

dear Regina
please, stand in front of the mirror and point yourself
please, say to yourself whether it is you
please, get a grab on to something
please, make up your mind

dear Byron
stand in front of the mirror and point yourself!
say to yourself whether it is you!
get a grab on to something!
make up your mind!

well, it was just trashy sentences which showed a different emotion in each phrases. i always think about something weird lately. i drew doodles in school 4 days ago, i think it's not good since i just did it for fun. but some of my friends said it's really good, i'm blushed. school got infinite boredom, so people just doodle around like me, everywhere. i usually draw some on my hand because of my obsession to have tattoos on my wrist, but unfortunately i'm prohibited for that, so it's just a pen :(
i also requested a doodle from my tumblr friend, actually it was happened a long time ago but i just can re-post it now. sometimes i really want to write something useful instead of just shouting crap of my life here, but i'm lack of information, plus lazy enough to think something new, okay let it be let it be.
another thing which makes me always grinning is Alfred Thomas Highmore a.k.a Freddie Highmore followed me back on twitter, i've adored him since Finding Neverland until The Art Of Getting By. He's total awesome.



keep smiling keep shining :)

Imammanda & Ega - Price Tag (Cover)

Quick Post

sorry for the lack post. so, i just got someone comment on my photo that i posted on tumblr.

Si tuviera un deseo, sería que tu vida te traiga un sabor de la felicidad, el mismo que ha traído a mí. Eso se podía...

which take me to Google translate, because i don't know the hell meaning of it. i don't even know what language it was. it's spanish..

If you had one wish, that your life would bring you a taste of happiness, the same that has brought me. That could ...

Favorite scenes : (500) Days of Summer

If...

Dear Claire, "What" and "If" are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if? What if? What if? I don't know how your story ended but if what you felt then was true love, then it's never too late. If it was true then, why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart. I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like - love to leave loved ones for, love to cross oceans for but I'd like to believe if I ever were to feel it, that I will have the courage to seize it. And, Claire, if you didn't, I hope one day that you will. All my love, Juliet

Sophie (letters to Juliet)

ya, only if, what if, if only are really powerful words. a simple sentence which added by one of those type of if can have a different meaning. example, 'i'm a rich girl', it doesn't mean anything but the fact that i am a rich girl, but if you add it with 'if only i'm a rich girl', it means i'm not rich but it has a possibility for me to be rich and it's like the opportunity to reach it is so big.
try this one...
'i'm a selfish girl', i accept the fact that i'm a selfish girl, this fact is sometimes also supported with people's assumsion. add it to be 'what if i'm a selfish girl', this fact is about i am a good girl who just too paranoid that people assume me as a selfish girl.
those contradiction of the use of what if can not be defined from its structure, but from its meaning and the sense of living on it.
the positive sentence added by this magical phrase could be a great motivation for us. and i don't know for sure, but that makes me feel like there's 99,9% chance to have what i want if i use those words.

what if i'm the one who apply to that college and i can get in easily
what if i'll meet a prince with a white horse in that party
what if someday i really be a great woman by following her suggestion

the big but is if you put the powerful words side by a negative meaning sentence, it could be the one who punch you down in to the core of the earth. and it haunts you with upcoming failure and another danger awaiting plus the other slaps that bring you downer. don't try it, it's contagious, and bad.

so conclusion, put anything good and what you really really want behind what if, only if, if only. the main idea of me telling this is to make up y'all mind, to think positive about anything, if you can't always do it at least you try, so do i. and always set your automatic good suggestion on your heart.....
keep calm, think positive and be classy

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hard days are coming by, my friends
final exams are in front of our frontest bone, but i think i have nothing prepared nor feel prepared
the heat of some people radiates me to crack the sky, but i won't cause i can't
these and those trapped blocked in here, and the reason comes from out there

YESterday, we made a surprise birthday celebratory for our beloved 'Sir' Mr. Val, he was born in valentine's day, so he has the name of it. it was fun, but only lasted for eeeehhh 10 minutes, i guess. i used to love ALL of my classmates, i loved when they sticked together. now, i can't even tell 'em to listen anymore. those paradigmas are planted too deep on my head, he she they told me different story, and sometimes i'm left with no one to trust. everything just black and white. sometimes i refuse to think about the world, but then i realize i'm being ridiculously selfish, and that makes me a completely stranger who i don't even know, then guide me to the perception of being lonely. bad analogy, but yes it's true.

resume of this week. too many doodles, meaning, too bored

Be Happy

everytime i go back home from school, i always plan to write something bad or rude here, on tumblr, even on twitter. but it's always ended up with cancelation, because i realize that those were just a short emotion, which makes me not 'like a lady'. you know, the way a quote sometimes works on you. ya one of them does on me 'Think like a boss, act like a lady', totally i can not do classy thingy, i'm total mess, hard for me to be classy as a lady. first of all i laugh A LOT everyday and it's not just a simple laugh, my mouth's opened widely while i was laughing -___-. so i decided to be classy in the way i manage my emotion my feeling and everything inside. if you can't afford from the outside, why have to be so sad, you still have another side.
looking happy all the time is a part of being classy. it's kinda cool, you know, looking happy all the time like you have a perfect life. i call it 'an act of what i want to be', it's not a faking though.
so, i have some tips for keeping happiness. plant your suggestion every morning you open your eyes that no matter happen today you will end up smiling. then don't let any anger stay more than 10 minutes. if you hate someone, please don't matter her/him, i mean if they make you mad just stay away, you deserve to be comfortable. don't take a joke seriously. make your own rule that you will laugh at least twice a day (?). do appropriate thing that make you happy, you can always listen to other's judgement but if their judgements make you uncomfortable, please don't mind them, take the good advice and try to be a better person. cry if you wanna cry, scream if you wanna scream, laugh if you wanna laugh. respect others and be nice :)