Friday Friday

school was on in Friday, there's a sport thing which is walking around the town which i skipped. i didn't plan it, i went to hospital to take Nana's stuff and i got stucked there for 2 hours. this is the second time i didn't join that school activity, the first is when i was in Penang. but i grabbed school at 9, so there were still a lot people there, and as i was planned i got Iput and Ade to help me make a photograph 'get well soon' for Nana. actually i had one other person more to help, but.. you know.
i got all that day activity pictures from Iput whom i really thanked for. well yeah, i just love them. it was a really full day for me, 2 hours skipping school staying at the hospital without parents' knowing, 2 hours at school busying around even i just have a chance to sit down calmly for 10 minutes, an hour back to the hospital, then i skipped course, take a nap for (you're not gonna believe this) 4 hours, get up and then go to the doctor, then sleep. easy as that --"
finally i feel what is the feeling to not feel anything, neither pleasure nor sad, just straight without any beat --------------------------------------------------------------- << like that






this morning i'll got my term test report, i don't care what's the result, all that i want is people can see which is the best from us or which is nothing from us, you know what i mean? i mean people get the result not from their really own ability. yeah let God gives them a thing.
advice from me, when you're feeling blue, grab your mobile and text your friend, it does help a lot ;)

now i'm twitter-ing while listening to Adele's concert. can't help but thinking too much

fakhriyyahK Fakhriyyah K

the next fifty years, i'm gonna tell my grandchild that i had really tough friends. they got really big matters in their life.

fakhriyyahK Fakhriyyah K

the better you are, the more struggle you get. maybe you seems weaker, but it makes you stronger than ever later.

fakhriyyahK Fakhriyyah K

then i will tell them (my grandchildren), that i was speechless reading their (my friends) texts and i was confused how to reply it.

then, i will tell my grandchildren that i saw contradiction faces between her (my friend) and her mom. her mom seemed soooo down, while she (my friend) tried to hide everything behind.

get well soon Nana
you're a hero before everything, you fight from the start by yourself, and you lead me to the right path
we love you, i love you <3

We're Still Here

A : so that's why you can't accompany me
N : yeah, i'm sorry, but i can't always have time for them

R : *staring at the laptop while smiling
M : why don't you stop smiling? you must've been really happy meeting them, right?

i have nothing to say seeing the world of non-sense
when the truth is hidden, and the fakers walk proudly on the road
whilst dollar being a God of God and all the matters are about brand
most people cling their half eye even though they sure can open both
truth is being endemic, them people are too afraid to say it
because they live on big mouth's hands

they use wall thick transparent ear muffs
so they can ignore crying hungry children, murmuring homeless people, screaming protesters
even National Anthem sometimes sounds less than meaningless
the choir sings just why they have to

.... to be continued i'm sleepy

i love this so much

finally term-test already gone, but i still have to punch the next hell-y semester.
okay, shoot. today, this afternoon, i had a super awesome great time with my friends. i know thanksgiving day already passed, but it's never too late to be thankful for. God lead me to the right path, i don't know what will i say but THANKS A LOT FOR EVERYTHING. i love them i love them soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo MUCH.
i learned a lot for the three years past, i was lost for a moment in the beginning of high school, then i got a grip. the unfitted one. but then it's released and i moved on. it's like i'm flying now, knowing everyone has the mutual bugs FEELS AWESOME. it's not we like to have enemy or something like that, but it's like we have a tons of cavalry that ready to help us when we got bammed.
my mind's mixed now, it's un-arranged. so many things i wanna say, but it's stucked, it's difficult when you were in A and you still have a part of B. and sometimes thinking positively doesn't always be good, and too innocent is too worst -___-.
Indonesia, i pray for you, i do not regret to be yours, but i'm just disappointed there are so many people like who i was before, once again i was lost. no wonder this country can't fly up high. it doesn't mean people like me can fly this country, NOOOO it doesn't mean like that, i mean how about making better change from ourselves first, nothing to lose though ;)

Struggle continues, but at least i know i'm not alone
Santana - Glee : Hold On To Sixteen

God only knows what we're fighting for
All that I say, you always say more

I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb, I can't breathe

So I won't let you close enough to hurt me
No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me

Adele - Turning Table

Taylor Swift - Ours

they're not as close as my 'were'indeed, but with them i feel like a free electron. i can make a van der wals bonding, it's not too strong but it feels more. making a hydrogen bonding with my 'were' which is a strong bonding, just makes me feel trapped and if we're cut off, it hurts and hard.
they aren't always there anytime for me, not all of them are always beside me, but i care about them and they care about me, we laugh at ourselves not laugh and make a joke at other people, and it's always fun.