finally term-test already gone, but i still have to punch the next hell-y semester.
okay, shoot. today, this afternoon, i had a super awesome great time with my friends. i know thanksgiving day already passed, but it's never too late to be thankful for. God lead me to the right path, i don't know what will i say but THANKS A LOT FOR EVERYTHING. i love them i love them soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo MUCH.
i learned a lot for the three years past, i was lost for a moment in the beginning of high school, then i got a grip. the unfitted one. but then it's released and i moved on. it's like i'm flying now, knowing everyone has the mutual bugs FEELS AWESOME. it's not we like to have enemy or something like that, but it's like we have a tons of cavalry that ready to help us when we got bammed.
my mind's mixed now, it's un-arranged. so many things i wanna say, but it's stucked, it's difficult when you were in A and you still have a part of B. and sometimes thinking positively doesn't always be good, and too innocent is too worst -___-.
Indonesia, i pray for you, i do not regret to be yours, but i'm just disappointed there are so many people like who i was before, once again i was lost. no wonder this country can't fly up high. it doesn't mean people like me can fly this country, NOOOO it doesn't mean like that, i mean how about making better change from ourselves first, nothing to lose though ;)

Struggle continues, but at least i know i'm not alone
Santana - Glee : Hold On To Sixteen

God only knows what we're fighting for
All that I say, you always say more

I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb, I can't breathe

So I won't let you close enough to hurt me
No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me

Adele - Turning Table

Taylor Swift - Ours

they're not as close as my 'were'indeed, but with them i feel like a free electron. i can make a van der wals bonding, it's not too strong but it feels more. making a hydrogen bonding with my 'were' which is a strong bonding, just makes me feel trapped and if we're cut off, it hurts and hard.
they aren't always there anytime for me, not all of them are always beside me, but i care about them and they care about me, we laugh at ourselves not laugh and make a joke at other people, and it's always fun.

staying up late in the middle of the night, never knowing what's gonna happen next. unhearing owl, that night mythical creature, few years ago often came along bringing fear. now, the fear is way wider than that. curious curiouser no longer asks for anybody's business, further away has no clue where's the finish line of the labyrinth. those sisters and brothers bring thee to the most incredible ticking of a clock. the devil keeps approaching with no intention to change the atmosphere, they succeed by breaking the ozone layers and bringing the neutralizer down. cover by cover had been flipped but the life Maker haven't thrown the crown to this prown. rain brakes single tear, while lightning crashes a line screaming. those who never expected come over to have a tea, all that left behind gets along. some of species will see me be put under the ground, maybe they won't spent their eye's pond just for the one. known as fearless person, never make a body live forever. smith never be allowed to pass the bridge of curved-triangle, but the one who be allowed never having a will even just to leave a fingerprint, because the witch already puts a curse on the allowed one. flashing memory pulls me down in to a fulled misery jar. to build that castle to reach the flag to put hand above the head. please give more than take, stay bright, stand tall, sit down then take a breath.

Katy Perry - The One That Got Away

it was a rainy afternoon, when i went out from my course heading to my friends house with my other two friends. i had a lil' chit chat with Zoe while we're waiting for Ann taking her jacket. then 10 minutes later, i clearly remember Ann appeared then Zoe and i jumped in our own motorbike.
we didn't have any bad thinking or ... yeah something like that. we're stopped by the traffic light near a bus station.
" I'm out of gas, you better go first ", I said
" i don't know her (my friend) house ", Ann said
" Zoe knows, just follow her ", I said that while my machine running
so, we splitted up, i took right to the gas station. the gas man was so nice, asking why i went home so late, and i was just ... you know course stuff. I left the gas station then.
i still ran my motorbike in a medium speed, and arrived right in front of my friend's house. but Zoe's and Ann's motorbikes weren't there yet, i was all confused by myself, then i turned around, took a random road, honestly i didn't know where to go.
no for long, Ann rang my phone.
" where are you? i've been here ", i said
" It's bad, Zoe fell ", she said it in panic
" what? but where are you right now? "
" just... go back. We're beside the court. Hurry! "
i turned my motorbike on and rode crazily. i couldn't find where they are, then i got a feeling that they're in that place, Ann walked out from the house, stared at me while pointing to Zoe that had been lying down surrounded unknown people. i was stuttered, speechless, and just Oh My God what the hell happened. i really really didn't say a word. we brought Zoe to the hospital.
i found Ann in the registration, she's so messed up. Zoe was in a transition room, when her father came, then her father completed the registration. Me and Ann, sitting in an emergency's waiting room, ALL SILENT, we're busy with our own mind. we didn't know what just happened. yeah we cried, made each other calm down, then her father permitted us to go home.

3 AM i woke up, i took a look on twitter and facebook it's all full of condolences words, okay what again. it's said my school's parking officer passed away. so many people attended his funeral, he's a nice person, he's the one who could remember almost all police number of our motorcycle.
and today, in 12PM sharp, my neighbor went away from this world, she's a grandma already, my mom said it's because of complication damage of her body, she's already old.
you know, what i'm saying is .... we never know when where God gives us a lesson to learn, we have to keep believing The One. be careful, make a peace, keep smiling and be happy :)

Justin Bieber - Mistletoe

i always have second thought every single time i wanna post something here. it's been decade i posted something here.
i just wanna stay silent, cause it's not comfortable anymore write anything here, it's like you put big sound system around the world, then you sing on a microphone.
moreover, i don't like people talk about every shits i put here. i don't like those craps who obsessed and checking on all of my accounts regularly. it's okay if you give more attention, but your way is way too wrong. it's like i've been stared all the time, and i do not like that. very much.
that is why i reduce the way i tweet, post and link something.
so, please be normal, back off and i beg you to move on.